my dream.

I hadn't been eating in awhile so that probably explains it.

Last evening our last prayer group was with the high school serving ones and that probably explains it too. 

But this is what I dreamed.

It was one of those time-lapse dreams and a lot of time passed and a few different places got merged into one. But I was in a high school we were using for Ignite (at least it felt like Ignite) and it was also my university campus. And I met this really nice guy somehow and over a long period of time that got squished into a few minutes, we kept bumping into each other, and then talking a bit, shyly, and as we got to know each other better I learned he was really outdoorsy and we walked around in a forest while he identified different flora and fauna for me. And there was something with a horse; I think I learned horseback riding. Anyways, there was one moment where we were hugging in the high school hallway and who came walking by but Nathan himself.

I was astonished to see him in my dream. I've never dreamed about him, not that I remember, not even when there was reason to; and I haven't had him on my mind for a long, long time. But there he was.

He came up from behind this guy, so I saw his reaction. He stopped, took a second look, and came over to intervene. I think he was taller than usual; he just stood there with his most condescending Nathan face, like we had just asked him the difference between acoustic and electric, and he said to the guy, "No, no, no. I think I know what's going on here, and I get it and everything, but trust me - you don't want this one. She's really unhappy right now." 

and I was like what the heck? I wasn't mad. Just astonished. Even asleep, I knew it was really weird for Nathan to interfere like that. He wasn't in love with me, he wasn't jealous, he didn't want to take me away from this guy. He was trying to give him some good advice; he was trying to tell him to stay away because I was bad news.

So I said, "What?...no, I am happy."

and he said, "No you're not." And then he added, "have you talked to your sister Mary recently?"

and what he seemed to be saying was that he had spoken to Mary and she told him something which led him to believe I wasn't happy. 

and then he walked away and the guy walked away and I was alone in the hallway, incredibly confused.

and I was so confused that I woke myself up.

weird dream. 

questions:

Why am I trying to tell myself that I'm unhappy?

should I call Mary?

Why wasn't I with Malcolm?