blow

can't breathe
i need, i need
resolution
and i have it and it is not what i want
the tears are flowing down my face, it
mystifies me how they can keep coming
and i have nothing left
i cannot feel it
i'm grateful for that
but still waiting for the moment when the impact hits
and i will fall again
and again, and again
i still feel unresolved
there remains so much to say
and hear
but none of it will be what i wish for
and most of it will hurt
i have forgiven already
already leaping to my attacker's defence
loyalty as always, aggravating in its endurance
i wish i could snap and fall away
but i know i'm stronger than this
which only means that there is no longer a way out
i need, i need
someone to talk to
but there is no one who understands everything
except the person who understands too much
it's not your fault
no worries