I'm a maverick

... i don't actually know what that means but it's really fun to say. Like montebank. lol i found myself a new skin. This makes me a genius =D SO let's do some blogging. Let's see... i'm pretty happy right now. I have to work tomorrow... that's kind of a damper but not really because i get next saturday off!! and what am i going to do with my newfound freedom?
Sleeeeeep. =)

I have nothing to do tonight, it's so weird. Usually there's always this vague pressure to be doing homework, practising piano, or sleeping... but i'm doing absolutely NOTHING constructive and i love it. I wish I was still in grade 6. that's the last time I remember when life was simple for me. I don't remember having any feelings for boys. none. I thought they were just bigger, stupider versions of me, and i had no use for them. Times have changed since then... but they've kind of come full circle. Back then I had no use for boys because i had no idea what they were like... now i've seen what they're like and what they can do and what they can offer me.. and i (temporarily) have no use for them. i love it!! Think about it. When you're single and you don't like anyone, you have so much more time on your hands. There's no pressure to be on msn, or go to this party or that movie, or to actually look good for school. You don't have to spend money on anyone else. Best of all, you can be completely yourself.. as random or weird or pissy as you want, and if people don't like it you don't have to care.
i have to take a random second to thank mel and heidi... lol you guys are awesome, i love this friendship thing we have going... i'm not all that sure what i would do without you.
friends are important.
anyways.
I think winter depresses me. seriously, every winter i get all withdrawn and solitary and books become my best friends again. Do you guys know why i read so much? It's because when i read i forget about all of my problems. I get to take a little vacation outside of my screw-up of a life and into a place where there's always a happy ending. And stuff isn't so complicated.
Besides, winter is never a fun time. The weather turns my nose red (eww) and it's COLD and i have to like, shiver. It sucks. And winter brings back memories. It's weird because I was so happy, and then so incredibly depressed, in the same winter. So when the cold weather starts, around November, that's when i remember the happy times. And around now, when it's all cold and stormy and dark... now i remember the sad times.
But i have discovered cheescake. All is right with the world - but it will be even better when i master dessert crepes. Then on to puff pastry!
later =)